I don’t know why it is so hard for me to let Jesus have complete control of my life.
I have surrendered my comfy life in America with my family and friends. I try my best to pick up my cross daily and follow him. I try my best to follow HIM.
But sometimes….I fight Him every single step of the way. Kicking and screaming.
I know that God is good, faithful, and all-powerful. He spoke the universe into creation.
I know all this.
But to be completely honest…sometimes it is hard for me to believe it. For some silly reason I think I know what is best.
If you would have asked me 2 weeks ago what my game plan was for when I get to Uganda - this is what I would have told you. I am going to get straight to work; I am going to find a house right away; and I am going to file our paperwork within the first week. I wanted Ekisa up and running by the end of October.
I, I, I.
I didn’t even bother to include God in this stuff. Surely He just wanted to show up for the big stuff right?
Wrong. So, so, so wrong.
Needless to say we did not find a house within the first week. Nor has our paperwork been touched. I had to lay down MY plans for Ekisa again. And this time, it was much harder.
I know God is going to give us a home, and we will be able to care for many children there. But it will be in His timing, not ours.
We have seen some pretty bad places, and some pretty nice ones. One promising house had a dead cow in the front lawn! Right now house hunting is taking every little bit of patience in me to do every day. It is draining. It is frustrating. And if we are lucky, it comes with dead cows.
Please keep praying! I know God is going to show up in big ways, and we will have a house for Ekisa. I cannot wait to share the story of how God will provide!